Sometimes its good to fall, to lose sense of yourself, to just cry it all out and then be able to come back and reanalyze everything from a different perspective. Even though situations maybe the same, we as people grow, so how we look at things can change.
At the end of the day I can be happy with myself in knowing that everything I have done I have done on my own accord. Even when people disagreed with me and fought me, I stood my ground and did what I felt was right or what I wanted to do. Finally I am in a good place, moving forward and most of all it is where I want to be. It may have taken me a while to find out what I wanted, but that is what life is all about experiences.
The best thing I have been able to do is to forgive. To let go. To be free. My heart still hurts but everyday I am getting stronger.