Hello world,
So today was the first night I have had off in a long time! It felt good but I was very tired, it left me wondering how I even stay up as late as I do to work.
I joined the gym today, I wanted to work out today but I didn’t get too. : ( I will be starting on Tuesday with a trainer. I don’t think I want a trainer but they give you a few free sessions when you join, I guess to point you in the right direction, I met the guy he seems really nice and excited to coach me. I guess I will be able to create a better more pin-point work out so I can work on what I need to.
I went shopping after I left the gym, didn’t find much, bought 2 pairs of black heals to wear with my new dress tomorrow night. I REALLLY like my dress, I feel sexy in it. I think that at least sexiness is 75% determined by attitude. I don’t know maybe it’s just me, I know that if I go out and I feel good I tend to socialize more when I’m out or I am approached by people more often.
I have always been attracted to people’s attitudes, I have met some very sexy men that have really bad attitudes and it just makes them ewwwwy (haha, yepp ewwwy=not sexy) maybe its 100% attitude, because I can think of some guys I was very physically attracted too and once I got to know them, I didn’t even like them as people. And I have met some people I haven't been attracted to right off the bat and then got to know them and have just thought they were the best thing since sliced bread.
Wouldn’t the world be such a better place if more people we like this? If we didn’t judge people for face value. I feel really bad b/c I kind of talked shit about a umm, voluptuous girl today at work. I am definitely in NO position to do that. She is actually a pretty girl. Prettier then me, just larger. And she was very nice to me when I spoke with her today, I bet she is a really nice person. I just said that I didn’t want to be that size or look like that b/c I don’t feel fat, even though I am. In my mind I feel like I’m a size 4 or something, I’m just very comfortable with being a fat kid, just not as fat of a kid as I am now does that make sense to anyone? *shrugs*
I saw the most beautiful woman in Target tonight as I was shopping, she was black light skinned with really pretty curly hair, she was well dressed, she was just really pretty (I mean all of this in a non-gay way). I can appreciate beautiful people and things!!
Hope everyone is happy I have blogged 2days in a row!! Yipppeeeeeeee. OK K K well Im gonna hit the sack, I know as soon as my face hits the pillow Im gonna be out… I leave you with one of my new favorite songs, I’m not a fan of Miley but I don’t dislike her either, lyrically this song just amazes me and I can really just relate it to my life… sweet dreams……
You know one other thing too, I guess another reason why I am so comfortable with myself is because I have always been a fat kid. And like I kinda am afraid to loose alot of weight because I dont want to attract a lot of people into my life and I really want someone to love me and I think that if someone was to truly love me it wouldnt matter what I looked like, so I guess in an odd way, as sceptical as I am I believe in love and I think that some day my prince will come.. : ) So I dont know, I feel like someone has to get to know me before they can think I am beautiful and thats what I want, someone to think I am beautiful for who I am...Is that completely stupid? I just thought of that, I dont know why.. you guys know Im random!! Ok sweeeet dreams... love... and happiness!! Good night!
