So I have been feeling kind of bummy and stressed the last week. I am and have been planning this move for over a year now. I have said when I graduate I’m out.
But I am just feeling so defeated.
I think it’s really sad that here I am a college graduate and I can’t go out and get a job to where I would be able to support myself. And it’s not just because we are in a “recession” or whatever. It’s just because life is too expensive.
If I was moving with someone or doing something like that, wanting help from my family, I am sure I wouldn’t be feeling this way. But I don’t want any of that I want to do this on my own. I want to know that I can make it, I can survive.
I haven’t been sleeping, everything I eat makes me sick, and I haven’t been able to breath, I’m not being dramatic, I get like that, I have panic and stress and I have problems breathing and etc…
I keep forgetting that I will be getting student loans for grad school either in July or August. That will help and pretty much float me but I mean still its, I’m taking 1 step forward and 5 back. I guess I have to do what I have to do though.
I can do this I know I can its not going to be easy but its not impossible either!
